Sacrifice

These past couple weeks I’ve been thinking a lot about the things I’ve been missing out on in order to keep my music career on track. Im not writing this blog post as a complaint but really an honest observation. Trying to develop a sustainable, long-term career in entertainment requires an obscene amount of sacrifice. Personal, physical, financial, mental, pretty much in every aspect of life.

I have been in alot of bands over the past 15 years with some great musicians. As I think back on all those bands I have come to realize that it’s not always the lack of talent that prevents a band from making the transition from a “weekend warrior” to a professional artist, it’s the amount they’re willing to sacrifice to make the dream come true. The majority of people are not willing to make the sacrifices necessary to succeed in this business, because sometimes it honestly sucks. Having to make a choice between one of your best friend’s wedding and saving for your next album is really hard. This summer alone I missed three weddings of friends and family. I’ve cancelled vacations that my husband and I had panned for months, I’ve moved away from my friends and family and I rarely do anything that doesn’t have to do with my music career in some way.

Along with the many sacrifices comes paralyzing fear that the decisions you’re making are wrong. Should I have gone on that vacation? Should I have purchased that piece of gear (even though it cost a fortune and I couldn’t afford it) etc. Every decision you make as an artist costs you in some aspect of your life.

But, along with these sacrifices comes something truly amazing! Here I am creating music that I love with band members that I love and who understand what it takes to succeed in this business. Music is my way of becoming immortal! After I die, my voice and my thoughts will continue to live through the music I’ve created. That is truly amazing!

My biggest fear in life is regret. I know that it’s unavoidable but I really fear looking back on my life and wishing that I would have followed my dream. It would have been really easy to take my Bachelor’s Degree, get a job, buy I house (which I sold to fund my business), have kids and continue on with probably a pretty good life. But for me this simply wasn’t an option. Im truly OK with failing at this music thing, but I am not OK with not giving it everything I have. I want to be able to reflect on my life and say, ‘Wow I did that.”

Im really sorry to the friends I don’t see as often, the friend’s and family members who’s weddings I couldn’t attend, to my husband for moving him across the country and to the people I’m going to lose along my journey.

To those other musicians out there who are pushing through the shit storm of this industry and making the same sacrifices for their art I would like to say you’re not alone in your journey and I draw strength from you.

To everyone afraid to make these sacrifices I urge you to keep this quote in mind;

“The more scared we are of a calling, the more sure we can be that we have to do it” (Steven Pressfield-theWARofART).

I am truly scared to death of this industry and of the next step in my journey, but in the end it’s what I feel like I’m here to do and won’t ever quit! -KVH


New album- World of Make Believe

We are so excited to be releasing World of Make Believe to the world. This album has been such a labor of love and felt like it took forever to release. This album took us through alot of ups and downs, during the writing process and in the studio.  There were so many songs to choose from and we compiled this album to take the listener through a journey of the sociological imagination. We’re hoping people will listen to our music and look at the world through new eyes. People need to look around and notice the chaos around us and also realize that one person can make a difference in the world!

Enjoy the album and thank-you for your support!cover2